Good Bye 2018

As I reflect back on 2018 and the intentions and "goals" I had set for myself, I can appreciate what a journey it was!  There were a few personal challenges for me that involved releasing a lot of fear and letting go of circumstances that were out of my control.

When I look at the achievements I made I can see how far I've come.  I finally returned to painting regularly!  After a 5 plus year battle with excess weight I lost 18lbs and won the Meltdown contest at my job as a result!  And, holy cow, I painted a WHOLE FREAKING PIANO!  And that was like, a lot of work but it really didn't seem like it at the time.

And I also realized that in 2018 I only completed 4 paintings (3 if you exclude the piano project)
Here they are:

All in all, when it comes to welcoming the New Year and setting a vision and intentions, I've come to realize that my "inner goals" are more important than my "outer goals".  Reaching any achievement involves me having the right mindset and way of thinking.  I've felt a tremendous shift in my thoughts and feelings and this has given me new confidence to move forward in the direction of my heart's desire!

I've also been working on consciously releasing 2018 in order to step into an amazing 2019 with new possibilities and opportunities!  I've had to focus on the parts of myself that needed to die and other parts that I still need to work on letting go of.

This has been a huge help!  Also, I catch myself "rationalizing" or "overthinking" about my feelings, especially if I'm sad or angry.  So now I'm working on just allowing myself to process my feelings and let them move through me, rather than trying to mentalize them.

So, here's to 2019 and continuing to learn and grow!  I will focus on releasing regrets and not worrying about the "unknown"  ~NAMASTE~